 |
| 07032000 |
| by Einna Coscolluela
|
|
| despair came to me one evening
|
| cloaked in night's dark embrace
|
| he gently tapped on my window
|
| i heard your thoughts, he said
|
| thoughts of me
|
| every night, your voice would call out my name
|
| why, he asked
|
| because
|
| tell me
|
| so i did
|
| you fascinate me. i hate you…and yet i need you.
|
| it is a contradiction
|
| and yet you understand, he said
|
| sometimes. and then it is not so much of a
|
| contradiction anymore
|
| it is enough
|
| silence
|
| do you love?
|
| there is someone. he is very special to me
|
| despair gave me a sad smile, took my hand
|
| waited
|
| with him i feel the deepest joy, the deepest pain.
|
| it is a contradiction…like you
|
| and even here you understand, he said
|
| i love him. it is all i know
|
| it is all that matters. you don't need me anymore
|
| that is a lie. i do need you. maybe not as much
|
| as before, but sometimes. when i am alone…
|
| i understand, he said. and then i will come
|
| i am glad
|
| he took me in his arms, held me close
|
| i closed my eyes, breathed him in
|
| always a contradiction
|
| but not really
|
| do you really hate me, he asked
|
| i looked into his eyes
|
| so much sorrow. so much compassion.
|
| i could not lie. not to him
|
| you take away so much, yet you give so much more.
|
| no, I do not hate you. you are who you are.
|
| it is meant to be
|
| i am glad. now close your eyes
|
| are you going to leave me?
|
| yes, he said. but not forever.
|
| now do as you were told
|
| i closed my eyes
|
| a lifetime passed
|
| an eternity
|
| his lips touched mine
|
| a kiss so light, so gentle, it almost didn't happen
|
| a sigh that seemed to come from the soul
|
| a single teardrop
|
| i am going to miss you, he whispered
|
| the slightest of breezes
|
| the echo of a touch
|
| i opened my eyes
|
| but not really
|
| he understood
|
|
